3Q 2012

So, it's been a looooooong while since I updated something personal about my life..

Today is the official close of the third quarter of 2012, and looking back, I can't say that it's been a good one for me. Been going through some roller coasters of emotions lately, and not all of them are caused by work, though some are (and this is what keeps me sane). I'm constantly being reminded at this juncture that everything is just so fragile, and that everything can just break in the blink of an eye.

All that you have worked for, and all that you have done, can be taken away from you the very next day. Your hard earned efforts will gain you no points,but perhaps it's better this way? I'm told that this is something that happens everyday, to too many people we know, and while I take comfort in the fact that I am not alone, I am still left wondering why is it that I feel alone in this?

The people you care about, and have sacrificed a lot for, may not even know it, or may have even chosen to ignore it. There is nothing much you can do except pray and hope that things will turn out for the best and that at the end of the day, it might turn out to have a happy ending even.

But given the dismal outcomes of most of the decisions I've made, I can't help but think that perhaps the light at the end of the tunnel is actually from an oncoming train, ready to destroy everything in its path.

Too many tears have been shed this month, and too much time has been accorded to emo-ness, and maybe it's time to stop that. There is still the remaining three months to the end of 2012, and there is still much to celebrate for. So why not look back and learn from everything, put less emphasis on things and people that do not deserve it, and try to make the most of the remaining days left in 2012.