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Have you ever felt excited about something, that you can't wait for it to arrive? Then suddenly few days before it actually does, you receive news that it's not going to be as great as you once thought it would be? All your plans, your gempak dashyat gila babi plans all going down the drain, and in the end you're left with only one feasible choice left, and that choice in itself is not even a choice at all, because that's the only thing left that can be done -_-"

And you feel all disappointed, and let down, and no mood, and sad, and....well, you get the drift.

The worst part is, that there's no one to blame. At all. You can't even get angry at anyone because it's all just a matter of timing, and it just so happens that the timing is not right. You can't even rant and rave and shout the house down because it serves no purpose (unless getting a sore throat and ending up having to buy Strepsils is any consolation, which it's not). It's like, the fates are conspiring against you, effectively stopping you from having the time of your life, and enjoying before you actually get down to the nitty gritty in life and start to finalise your resume, get a job, deal with graduation issues, etc..

I guess the only thing left to do is just go with the flow, and see what happens..hopefully it wouldn't be as bad as I think it would...It's all yet another exam, in the already worn fabric that is my life, just to see if this can stand the test of time..

Argh!!!! I'm already so freaking tired of exams...why must there be yet another hurdle for me to go through?

Bugger.